Breeze of Spring: Shadows of Dusk

Choki Dolkar

You’re tamer

Calmer

I’m less timid

You seemed mature

Now you approach wiser

We’re older now

We talked

We talk

But it’s different now

We’re still the same

With new leaves

Did you notice my new blossom

In the dim light

You appear different

Less idol-like

More life-like

Our talks-I like them better now

I’m more comfortable

I’m more confident

Not fully

And when I’m conscious

I’m queasy

But I’m different now

Time had passed since then.

I feel you know my secret

I keep under lock and rug

But do you know my secret

Why do you know my secret

If you do, that makes us closer

But did you peep under the rug

When I wasn’t there

I’m chagrined of those blemishes

I want them to be washed away

Everybody has stains

Tell me, don’t you

In the dim light

You look tired too

Your face that once porcelain sheen

Looks tamad with less catered hair

But the air is different

You seem less

Is that pity in your eyes

We are less pretentious

I’m more me

More open to honesty

To showing flawed

Unfeigned perfection

As your car approaches

It’s time to go

And as we say goodbyes

What was that look in your eyes

Did you feel the air too

Do you see I’m different too

I turn and smile

It was natural

It was habit

A tad bit awkward but

Genuine too

As I walk away

I’m still feeling low

As I was before we happened to meet this fine evening

But the wind has shifted

The shadow is lighter

And the farewell I bade

I meant them too.